Friday, November 18, 2011

Thoughts on 2.5 Months in Houston Texas

Wow.. its been a while! How have you been? Hopefully well!

I really dont even know where to begin with all the things God is bringing up and out of my life through living on McGowen street in Houston Texas, so I thought I would share thoughts God has given me that I've written in my journal.

...Don't be so quick to pass judgement or give your own advice...God is enjoyable, unsearchable, mysterious, frightening, filled with peace and joy. God is in stillness. God is hope. Remember you're last Hes first and everyone else is after... Stop trying to be God, let God be God... "All that I have and cherish, You have given me. I surrender it all to be guided by Your will: Your grace and Your love are wealth enough for me. Give these Lord Jesus and I ask for nothing more. Amen" - St. Ignatius... With Your Spirit, we CAN... "Life is a series of moments, you just need to make a conscious decision each moment to do the right thing." Jenni Shayshay :)

Love, Lyndsay

Monday, November 7, 2011

Real Post Soon

... hopefully :)

Not much time, too much to say.


God is everything

... keep a look out ya'll

Thursday, July 21, 2011


I am humbled to the floor.

This morning consisted of a very gulity prayer time for me... I was feeling Godly conviction but also demonic guilt over how I conducted myself the day prior. The one thing I feel I left with this morning that was of God was that what is MOST important is where you are RIGHT NOW with the Lord. Yes, you fall, have you gotton up. Yes you found out that you arent always right (a VERY good thing) so how are you going to change to be different the next time.

So I came in the house and checked my email and my mission support report (yes... it rhymes)

and this is the figure I found:

I need to raise $12,000 over the course of the whole year. The amount thats been given to me currently?


My jaw... IT DROPPED! I was floored by the amount I had thought I had before I checked which was around 7K.... I had NO IDEA God was going to provide this fast for my need.....

A part of me screams out, "Why God? As You saw yesterday, I don't deserve this!!???"

But another part... a quite voice that is starting to get louder, "Its for His glory Lyndsay. He has made you worthy by the blood of Yeshua. Accept it as a child. Take on a heart of thankfulness toward God and toward the people He chooses to use"

So, if you've given to me, thank you from the bottom of my heart thank you. I'm praying blessings on your heart that you might on a deeper level know the person of God.


Thursday, July 7, 2011

Great Advice From An Unsuspecting Place

Hey all!

So I'm on the popular website called Tumblr (this should be a link to my page.. we'll see) and I've found a really thriving Christian community on there which has been pretty interesting watching the Kingdom of God coming about... through the Internet. lol

Anyway, there are people using that website that deal with every problem under the sun (which is another reason why I think there is such a big amount of people using the site, people aren't afraid to reach out for help and to ask for help/prayer however hard it might be for them). From depression to self harm, from eating disorders to pornography. People are getting their prayer requests out and God is working though peoples prayers!! It's really a beautiful thing to see!

Anyway, I found out about this ministry called Beggars Daughter which helps woman who have dealt with pornography addictions. I browsed the website because though I don't deal with a pornographic addiction, I have dealt in the past with an addiction to men, which has included alot of day-dreaming. On the site they had a specific article about the renewal of our minds (Romans 12:2).

The advice given in the article was SO good, you can pretty much take out the word "pornography" and substitute it for any other sin that you're dealing with!!

The article is found here.


** Some of my Tumblr friend's pages:



Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Josh Garrels

Just heard some great news and I really have to plug one of my favorite musical artists. I first heard Josh Garrels music when I was having a meeting with one of my favorite (... they were kind of all my favorite but that just makes them all really great!) professors Laura Lasworth. When I heard what I found out later was the song Break Bread (which you can download for FREE here just click on the harmonica :) I said to Laura, "Who is this??" and she said, "It's actually Gala's brother Josh" (Gala is actually another one of my favorite professors :) I went to his website and was instantly hooked.

I occasionaly frequent his blog and on a recent trip there I read something so great! He had been asking for prayer about his upcoming album (him and his wife do all of the work for the album out of pocket I believe) because of the cost to make it and because of him being sick. His latest posting anounced that the album was finished and- so cool- they were giving it away digitally for free till they have the hard copies done... wow! Heres some things he says in the post, "We've really felt the Lord asking us to give this album away for one year, and it's our joy to do so!" "We want this to be a 'year of jubilee'!"

What the beautiful manifestation of the gracious Spirit of Yeshuah!

Heres an INCREDIBLE video of one of his songs:

Monday, May 30, 2011

Right now

I feel I keep royaly skrewing up...


Maybe God is making me lose all confidence in my ability (I hope)

Or maybe something else... all I know is that the past few weeks I feel I've digress a few years...

Failure hurts. Am I really failing?

I can be SO hard on myself...

But I am SUCH a people pleaser.

What part is me getting it right and needing to get over people not agreeing and where is it I'm completely wrong and need to listen to advice?

Thats my prayer right now God, I need direction. I need to know Your Spirits voice

(I know this also might just be Satan trying to mess with me before I leave..)

I just know there's an unsettledness in my heart right now... and its no fun.

Please... God would you make Your desires mine... OH that I would hide Your word in my heart that I might not sin against you...

Thursday, May 5, 2011

God is changing me

I cannot desribe

Take me away Yahweh

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Abba, I Belong to You

This name... of God, has been the cry of my heart recently. Its the name I've been using for Him more and more and more.

God... His Breath.... is blowing down expectations, walls and boxes I've been trying to fit Him in. I feel that I'm slowing coming out of a desert into a greener place. I'm beginning to realise as well, that life is full of both high and low places. And when things seem to be going right and God seems close, or when nothing goes right, you keep messing up and God seems far.... He hasn't left. A phrase my new pastor repeats quite often that I want to become the saying for my life: S t a y   y o u r   c o u r s e.

When your coming to these places of clarity, of earnest desire for God, you wonder why you would ever want anything else.

Something that has stuck with me, that I believe God allowed me to see to lead me to call Him this name... Abba... on the plane to Jerusalem, there was this sweet little Jewish family sitting in front of us: a dad, mom, a little girl around 3 years old and a baby. The little girl was asleep for a good part of the trip, but when she woke up she got fussy. She started to cry, "Abba! Abba!" Calling out as many young children do when they feel something is wrong with them and they want their dad to fix it. While remembering how this little "child of God" crying out for her Abba... something clicked in my spirit.

A few weeks ago when I was completely broken down and confused... I was that little girl. And I did exactly as she did, I cried for my Abba. And He answered me.

And He will answer your call to Him

And I'm sure I will cry out again, but as I'm learning, I can always trust Him

because He is Abba

**I had to put this in, it is SO SO SO very true. This is a comment from this video on YouTube:

Love this song, it's the new vine. Its fresh and written for this generation calling out for fatherhood

Abba, I Belong to You by Jonathan David Helser

You're more real than the wind in my lungs
You're more real than the ground I'm standing on

You're thoughts define me, you're inside me
You're my reality

Abba, I belong to you

You're closer than the skin on my bones

You're closer than the song on my tongue

Saturday, April 9, 2011

Malachi 3

Malachi 3 (English Standard Version)

"Behold, I send my messenger, and he will prepare the way before me. And the Lord whom you seek will suddenly come to his temple; and the messenger of the covenant in whom you delight, behold, he is coming, says the LORD of hosts. But who can endure the day of his coming, and who can stand when he appears? For he is like a refiner’s fire and like fullers’ soap. He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver, and he will purify the sons of Levi and refine them like gold and silver, and they will bring offerings in righteousness to the LORD. Then the offering of Judah and Jerusalem will be pleasing to the LORD as in the days of old and as in former years. "Then I will draw near to you for judgment. I will be a swift witness against the sorcerers, against the adulterers, against those who swear falsely, against those who oppress the hired worker in his wages, the widow and the fatherless, against those who thrust aside the sojourner, and do not fear me, says the LORD of hosts. "For I the LORD do not change; therefore you, O children of Jacob, are not consumed. From the days of your fathers you have turned aside from my statutes and have not kept them. Return to me, and I will return to you, says the LORD of hosts. But you say, 'How shall we return?' Will man rob God? Yet you are robbing me. But you say, 'How have we robbed you?' In your tithes and contributions.  You are cursed with a curse, for you are robbing me, the whole nation of you.  Bring the full tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. And thereby put me to the test, says the LORD of hosts, if I will not open the windows of heaven for you and pour down for you a blessing until there is no more need. I will rebuke the devourer for you, so that it will not destroy the fruits of your soil, and your vine in the field shall not fail to bear, says the LORD of hosts. Then all nations will call you blessed, for you will be a land of delight, says the LORD of hosts. "Your words have been hard against me, says the LORD. But you say, 'How have we spoken against you?' You have said, 'It is vain to serve God. What is the profit of our keeping his charge or of walking as in mourning before the LORD of hosts? And now we call the arrogant blessed. Evildoers not only prosper but they put God to the test and they escape.'" Then those who feared the LORD spoke with one another. The LORD paid attention and heard them, and a book of remembrance was written before him of those who feared the LORD and esteemed his name. "They shall be mine, says the LORD of hosts, in the day when I make up my treasured possession, and I will spare them as a man spares his son who serves him. Then once more you shall see the distinction between the righteous and the wicked, between one who serves God and one who does not serve him.

Friday, April 8, 2011

Richard Dahlstrom

*melancholy sigh*

Though I dont agree with every single part of his theology, the pastor from my home church in Seattle, Richard Dahlstrom has some really good things to say. He has a fantastic blog that I really occasionally. Read a few of his entries just now, GOOD WORDS! Here's one about abstinance and here's another about arguments over non-crucial things within the church

I miss it :(

Thursday, April 7, 2011


I can at times be harsh

And condemning

Yes, we need to keep each other accountable as brothers and sisters in Christ. "...let him know that he who turns a sinner from the error of his way will save a soul from death and cover a multitude of sins." James 5:20

However, "But He gives more grace. Therefore He says: 'God resists the proud, But gives grace to the humble.' Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you." James 4:6-7

And especially, "Mercy triumphs over judgment." James 2:13
(*you can guess what book I read this morning*)

A very small glimpse of the HUGE MASSIVE grace of God was shown to me this morning. Yesterday when I woke up, when I would lay flat on my back my eyes acted like I had just gotten off of a roller coaster or a merry-go-round. Then I would turn to my side and be fine. I was doing exercises I normally don't do the night before, and I broke my tailbone a couple months ago so I thought I should probably call a chiropractor. The one in town is a man who goes to my church whose wife I sing with on worship team occasionally. So I called and made an appointment for this morning. Well, later in the day yesterday I noticed that the nausea was gone (PRAISE GOD!) so I called him back to cancel my appointment but I just got the answering machine so I left a message. I felt like this morning I should probably call again just in case he didn't get the message. I was feeling kind of guilty because I made a kinda early appointment so I was hoping that he didn't got into work early just for me. When I called he said he hadn't checked the messages yet, so I told him I had to cancel and I was very sorry. Instead of the sound of annoyance coming from his reply, there was total grace.  "That's totally fine!" he said in a cheery sort of way.

However little and insignificant that story might seem, I think God wants us to look for signs of His grace everywhere and too not only recognize His grace, but to receive it HUMBLY. So in the future when I want to act all high-and-mighty with someone, I will remember that there is only ONE Perfect One and He has given me MUCH grace so I must give MUCH grace.

We serve such a good God who is so patient with us!

Also just letting you know from the last entry, the big decision has been decided:

I'm going to Mission Year next year :)

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Decisions, decisions...

Why are the big ones so hard?

Sunday, February 27, 2011

UGH so great!!!

God is SO beautiful through His creations!

I found an AMAZING photographer (and just found out he was a freelance illustrator/designer!!) who did an AMAZING project that I am very excited to look at. 365 photos with quotes :D I'll post a couple here and then give you a link to his website. His name is Parker Fitzgerald :D

Tuesday, February 22, 2011


Deleting my account off of a popular social networking website (Twitter) and had some great quotes saved on it... so I want to preserve some of them on here... :D

Owl City

My dad sent me a postcard with a picture of planet Earth taken from space. On the back he wrote, "Wish you were here." #GoodOneDad

C.H. Spurgeon
"Great hearts can only be made by great troubles."

Holly Starr

I just ate chili..and now I'm feeling chilly.. Coincidence? I think NOT! #coincidenceisnotakosherword

Women of Jerusalem, promise me by the gazelles & the deer not to awaken or excite my feelings of love until it is ready.Song of Solomon 3:5
Paul Washer

The Christian life is not filled with many great things, but rather with many small things that add up to something great.

We have a beautiful snow coming down in Radford this afternoon. My children could not be happier. We will try to sledding this evening.

Nothing is more powerful than a revelation of God's kindness to a needy soul. His love breaks more than hammers and wounds more than whips.

God helped me this morning in prayer. Oftentimes when we run from God when we most need to seek Him. I am always overwhelmed by grace.

Man plans his steps, but the Lord is sovereign over all. All my peace rests upon the knowledge that He is all-good, all-wise, all-powerful.
An inward look is necessary, but do not tarry long. It is dangerous to take one's eyes off of Christ. Always examine self in light of grace.

Dear brothers, I encourage you to meet with the Lord today. Renew your mind in the Word and cry to Him for the grace to live as you ought.
A W Tozer

"God expects of us only what He Himself has supplied."

Dylan Williams

"Let's rock the flock!" -Holly's pastor
Hi Quincy. You're a nice town.
Louie Giglio

My friend Mike [AKA-Ashley's dad from Fruitcake and Ice Cream] is celebrating his first birthday as a Jesus-follower today!

jack mooring

The danger, is thinking that we have anything good to offer this world outside of the grace and goodness of God. Apart from Him, NOTHING

Matt Chandler

Meditating on Ecclesiastes 7 and 1 Corinthians 15 as I prepare my heart to enter the "house of mourning" which "is the end of all men"

Singing "You hold me now" with 1000 Villagers makes me want to go on home

Passionately pleading with people to hear and apply the Gospel never gets old to me

Britt Merrick

When your consider yourself (good or bad) you should immediately consider Christ. For self should never be pondered apart from Him
Jon Foreman

Just singing into my laptop... Mydemo mydemo mydemo

Breath is an amazing gift, given to us for a few years then taken away. I need a reminder of it's value from time to time.
C. S. Lewis

In science we have been reading only the notes to a poem; in Christianity we find the poem itself.
D.L. Moody
A holy life will produce the deepest impression. Lighthouses blow no horns; they only shine

Oswald Chambers

All of our fears are sinful, & we create our own fears by refusing to nourish ourselves in our faith

Haa. Just found out im genetically impossible :-) lol.
"Im not a calzone... The last time i checked!"
Life is like pizza. When its good, its great. When its bad, its still pretty good.

Mike Donehey

A friend just reminded me that you can no more produce love in yourself than you can grow an apple out of your arm. God must do it in us.
Colossians 1 says the gospel is bearing fruit. Galatians 5 says the fruit of the Spirit is.. The fruit we produce is not our own. It's Gods

Sunday, January 23, 2011


... seems to keep coming at me!

Most of these are songs I havent bought yet but have previewed and LOVED.

Sometimes I wish music didn't cost money... :(

1. Soweto Gospel Choir

There's a power and emotion to African Gospel singers in general that just... astounds me. Something so incredibly guteral and real and pure about this music... this song was way encouraging. Though the lyrics are so simple the music... God imparts power through it!! You can totally feel it!!

2. Matisyahu
I've known about Matisyahu for quite a long time but just recently began looking at his music again after my trip to Israel :D. Bought his song "Jerusalem" and LOVED it. Just listened to "Indestructable" and also.. LOVED it. Fun, catchy and also another really emotion-filled type of music (reggae). I think I love this song especially for the chorus and 3rd verse:
"Just untooling the hands of the builder. Fill them with the strength to go further. Digging deep for eternal treasure. Stay away from quick sand and false pleasure. Them mouths speak with arrogance. Appearance like a lion lurking in the mist. They surround and they gaze their fix. Grab the rope of Gods heritage"
3. Priscilla Ahn

Elegant. Beautiful. Simple. Sometimes the depth of the music, and the depth of the true Giver of this beautiful music can make a deep pool out of these simple carefree lyrics. Truely touching.

4. Jonny Lang

Wow!! Did this amazing artist seem to pop out of nowhere to me! INCREDIBLE vocalist!!! You would never imagine looking at his face that THAT kind of voice would come out of him! I really hope to someday buy the whole album (which is a mixture of Blues and Gospel music [!!!!!!!!]) but the song I do have made me CRY the first time I heard it, "Only a Man". He hits conversion and the desparity of the Christians utter dependance about God right on the head! B E A U T I F U L!!

Theres much more... but I cant pick so... Goodnight!

Saturday, January 15, 2011


Feel like I've been











for a while now... living the Christian life great for a while, then royally screwing it up. Trying hard to protect myself from messing up all the while making huge mistakes in other areas. Asking for Gods help but only sometimes taking it. All the time battling mean spirited untrue thoughts about people who are close to me... Then times when I'm so tired... ah.
O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death?

A dear, dear friend of mines grandmother recently called me out of no where and laid much grace and mercy from God on me in a phone conversation when I was feeling so heavy and weighed down. She recommended (and gave) this book to me called "The Green Letters" by Miles J. Stanford which is about Christian maturity. Man, God is so sovereign... something I say non stop but... I can't get over it. This book has been speaking volumes to me about...myself. And more importantly about Christ. I need to realize, accept, and (haha) live daily in the fact that because of CHRIST

I'm dead,
For if you live according to the flesh you will die, but if by the Spirit you put to death the deeds of the body, you will live. 
There was no hope for me, my flesh. So God came and I was crucified, 2,000 years ago. And me, my flesh needs to STAY in that tomb so that Jesus may live in this tent.

But I'm not going down easy I guess...

"Is it not time we allowed the Holy Spirit to get at the source, and cut off this stream of sins before they are committed? Is this not infinitely better than the wreckage caused by sin, even through confessed? When believers get sick and tired of spinning year after year in a spiritual squirrel cage- sinning, confessing, but then sinning again- they will be ready for God's answer to the source of sin, which is death to self, brought fourth from the completed work of the cross...I must recognize that the enemy within the camp- the flesh, the old nature, self, I, the old Adam- is a usurper. By faith I must reckon him to be in the place that God put him- crucified with Christ. I must realize that now my life is hid with Christ in God; that He is my life."   
The Green Letters
 All this to say I still haven't gotten it yet... but man... oh man do I believe... that God is a gracious God.

And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.

It is ALL Him... all the time!

So while in the midst of this struggle of putting to death my self and allowing the Spirit free reign I find kindred spirits who seem to sing the same song :)