... and He shall strengthen your heart: wait I say, on the LORD.
Waiting... something so counter-cultural, something so.... difficult. I feel like for the past 6 months all that I've hear from God is... wait, wait dear one. My heart has gone probably a million different directions and has looked down a million different paths since coming home from Mission Year. Coming here, back to where I'm from and doing the same ole' same ole' has been extremely difficult for me. There have been a few times where I've tried to jump the gun on God and figure things out for myself while waiting to still have His blessing... it hasn't worked. While praying the other day, seeking and desiring for my needs to be met or my frustrations to subside about where I feel my life is going, I just layed it all down. I felt better. I didn't have my answer but, i felt better. I slowly began to realize that God, in this time of waiting, is answering a prayer of my from times of passionate longing for Him. He is using this time to form me into the person that He desires me to be, cleansing out all that doesn't please Him. He's also giving me a lot of time by myself which has been pretty lonely at times if I'll admit it. But I see now that He's doing it because He wants to spend time with me... to really allow me to get to know Him (He already knows me). So now, I notice when I have a lot of free time and I spend it paroozing Facebook or the like I feel worse. I feel unfulfilled. And, to be honest, I feel jealous. But when I spend my time in His word, singing about Him, creating art inspired by Him... I don't have those feelings and I'm actually excited about the future, even though I'm seeing more and more that I have no idea what it holds for me. But one thing I do know, if I continue to allow Him, my God and King, YHVH, that its going to be alright... not just alright but GREAT.
Here are some verses for you, to encourage you to wait. Don't step ahead of God, "He makes all things beautiful in His time." Ecclesiastes 3:11
Psalm 39:7 ESV“And now, O Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in you.
Psalm 37:7 ESVBe still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; fret not yourself over the one who prospers in his way, over the man who carries out evil devices!
Micah 7:7 ESVBut as for me, I will look to the Lord; I will wait for the God of my salvation; my God will hear me.
Isaiah 40:31 ESVBut they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.
Isaiah 30:18 ESVTherefore the Lord waits to be gracious to you, and therefore he exalts himself to show mercy to you. For the Lord is a God of justice; blessed are all those who wait for him.
Isaiah 33:2 ESVO Lord, be gracious to us; we wait for you. Be our arm every morning, our salvation in the time of trouble.
Isaiah 64:4 ESVFrom of old no one has heard or perceived by the ear, no eye has seen a God besides you, who acts for those who wait for him.
Isaiah 49:23 ESVThen you will know that I am the Lord; those who wait for me shall not be put to shame.”
Psalm 25:5 ESVLead me in your truth and teach me, for you are the God of my salvation; for you I wait all the day long.
Psalm 130:6 ESVMy soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen for the morning, more than watchmen for the morning.
Psalm 62:1 ESVFor God alone my soul waits in silence; from him comes my salvation.
Isaiah 26:8 ESVIn the path of your judgments, O Lord, we wait for you; your name and remembrance are the desire of our soul.
Psalm 130:5 ESVI wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in his word I hope;
Psalm 69:3 ESVI am weary with my crying out; my throat is parched. My eyes grow dim with waiting for my God
Psalm 40:1 ESVI waited patiently for the Lord; he inclined to me and heard my cry.
Proverbs 20:22 ESVDo not say, “I will repay evil”; wait for the Lord, and he will deliver you.
Psalm 59:10 ESVMy God in his steadfast love will meet me; God will let me look in triumph on my enemies.
Galatians 5:5 ESVFor through the Spirit, by faith, we ourselves eagerly wait for the hope of righteousness.
Hosea 12:6 ESV“So you, by the help of your God, return, hold fast to love and justice, and wait continually for your God.”
Isaiah 25:9 ESVIt will be said on that day, “Behold, this is our God; we have waited for him, that he might save us. This is the Lord; we have waited for him; let us be glad and rejoice in his salvation.”
Titus 2:13 ESV
Waiting for our blessed hope, the appearing of the glory of our great God and Savior Jesus Christ,