I'm subbing for an accounting class at a high school and just had a good (but seemingly disruptive) student ask me... "Hey miss... Yes?... Did you hear about what happened in the newspaper the other day?.... What happened?.... The energizer bunny, was charged with battery.... Good one."
I never thought I would be a teacher. Maybe once or twice when I was very small, but as I grew older in the school system and saw how the attitudes my peers and I had for my teachers at times I ended up thinking it would probably be a HORRIBLE job to deal with stinky, disrespectful kids...
God always seems to throw us curve balls.
Not only am I swinging at a curve ball in my vocational pursuits (all the previous paragraphs to say is its looking like I'm going to be completing another season of education going for a degree in Special Education) but theologically where I am at now is completely opposite of where I ever thought I would be.
I've been going to a Messianic Jewish Synagogue here in Quincy. Now, would I currently consider myself a Messianic Jew? No, not yet. But I now have beliefs that not alot of other Christians posses, at least at this time. Like the importance of following Gods law as laid out in the Torah (OT), not including the parts that are impossible to do/Yeshua did away with. And also, to clarify, NOT following them for salvation but what comes out of a relationship with God after salvation. I also feel like I know and understand more in Gods Word than I ever have (which includes knowing that I have only begun to scratch the very surface of the revelation and wisdom of the Almighty). This has been an exciting/scary/unexpected part of my journey with God. More than all those descriptors I'm sticking with EXCITING :)
Lastly, I am definitely in a place right now I never though I'd be.
Namely, where I grew up. The big Q (haha). Now, why God has me here... I have a few ideas but honestly, I have no clue. He always seems to place us exactly where we thought we would never want to be but it ALWAYS works out exactly how it needs to IF (huge conditional "if" right there) we're following Him (John 14:15).
The biggest thing God is teaching me and I'm slowing allowing myself to learn is TRUST in Him... If I was were I am right now at the growth level I was at a year ago I would be freaking out (not that I don't do that sometimes now). I would be trying with all my power to get as far away from here as I could. I'm also seeing that in other areas of my life (my singleness). God is really REALLY showing me that He is trustworthy even through the little events that will happen throughout my week. I will want something to happen and really desire to try and control the outcome of stuff. Then I realize if I try and force things to happen the way I want them too (this is all coming out of a proud and self-exalting spirit) it will never glorify God, thus it really isn't what I want and defiantly not what God wants. So there have been a few times, instead of taking things into my own hands like I do so often I said, "No God, I give this desire to You. If You want this to happen, show me how You want things to be done or You do it". Let me tell you, that is a GREAT place to be. He will either redirect your desires or FULFILL THEM. How awesome is our God
We'll see what God does with the rest of my life. I just hope and pray I'm ALWAYS in a constant state of humility and dependence on Him.
Even with curve balls and stinky kids.
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