New Season, New Location

Friends!

(or anyone who still reads this)...

I have officially moved my blogging to my website:

www.lyndsayroyer.com

I plan on still leaving this site here until I am able to compile and save the posts (Yah has taught me a LOT that I have saved on these pages!!)

Till then I'll see you over at my site!

So long blogger :)

What our hearts do with delay

Hope deferred makes the heart sick,    but desire fulfilled is a tree of life. Proverbs 13:12

I think we all experience seasons of life where we feel our hope being deferred. And for those of you who are there now, when you really think about it, in a sense we're all there at one point or another.

Its so easy when waiting on God to slip into self pity and doubt; especially when glimpses of the realization of what we are waiting for come and when it seems the expectation is about to be fulfilled - it slips away, remaining elusive. Growth. Progress. Visualize. We in the West are such a driven people, sometimes (maybe a lot of times) to a fault.

I really thought I got a pretty secure date of departure for leaving to PNG, then I found out I notarized some paperwork incorrectly and need to resubmit it which takes another 2 weeks to send not counting the time it will take to process on arrival.

So I teared up a bit. My heart has definitely felt flu-ish for a while now.

Yet I can feel YAH my Creator keep desperately calling me to hang on... to cling white knuckles to Him alone. He beckons for my attention, He is a jealous GOD (Exodus 34:14). But not jealous because of stuck-up pride. He is jealous for glory because He deserves all glory. He deserves ALL our attention. HE deserves to be our hope - not what He can give us, do to us, do through us, give to us...

HE needs has to be the TOTAL and COMPLETE sole object of our affections, vision and purpose.  Because when He is, we are complete - lacking nothing (James 1:4)

My weariness has caused distraction. I should never let my situation, no matter how intense/boring/exciting/expectant/horrific it is move me. Oh that my eyes were like Yeshua's who, though fully experienced all human emotions, pains, trials and circumstances; was not moved by them.

For His eyes were fixed not on what is seen, but what is Unseen (2 Corinthians 4:18)



Ok so my new favorite band is United Pursuit for like 1 billion reasons. It is incredible how my tastes have changed recently when it comes to music, all I really want to listen to is worship. Anyway, I have anticipated their new album for about a month now and it just released yesterday. I was not disappointed. Then this song happened. I've never experienced a song that I felt, to this extent, sings simultaneously what my heart is currently saying and what my heart longs to say with complete conviction (the following italics, bolding an underlining are mine):

Hidden feat. Will Regan

There was one when I was young
Who knew my heart
He knew my sorrow
He held my hand
And he lead me to trust him

Now I am hidden
In the safety of your love
I trust your heart and your intentions
Trust you completely
I’m listening intently
You’ll guide me through these many shadows

As I grow
And as I change
May I love you more deeply
I will lean upon your grace
I will reap because your goodness is unending

You are my vision
My reason for living
Your kindness leads me to repentance
I can’t explain it
This sweet assurance
But I’ve never known this kind of friend
I can’t explain it
This sweet assurance
But I’ve never known this kind of friend

The sun, moon, and stars
Shout your name
They give you reverence
And I will do the same
With all my heart I give you glory
The sun, moon, and stars
Shout your name
They give you reverence
And I will do the same
With all my heart I give you glory

I want to seek you first
I want to love you more
I want to give you the honor you deserve
So I bow before you
I am overcome by the beauty of this perfect love

I want to seek you first
I want to love you more
I want to give you the honor you deserve
So I bow before you
I am overcome by the beauty of this perfect love

Now I am hidden
In the safety of your love
I trust your heart and your intentions
Trust you completely
I’m listening intently
You’ll guide me through these many shadows

Now I am hidden
In the safety of your love
I trust your heart and your intentions
Trust you completely
I’m listening intently
You’ll guide me through these many shadows

Shining underneath

Though I've been told by friends that I am a sympathetic person...

sometimes I really have a hard time crying.

I think it might be because in the past I made myself be "the strong one" (oximoron really -) in situations for people, feeling that if I cried the person would feel like there was no control over the situation. Now that I've "toughened up" I find it hard to shed a tear with someone in their moment of suffering. This is something I've realized and am praying for God to help me with, especially seeing as I feel God call me to a lifetime of living ministerially/missionally.

I love it when something beautiful pierces your heart in such a way that you can't help but release the beautiful gift of tears. - All - of this, every time... is from God. - Every - time it happens, it happens because He either exposes us to a new aspect of Himself or refreshes us on something already known

While studying scripture today and listening to a sermon, I was reminded about both our propensity to sin (reading in 1 Samuel 14 - 15 about all of Saul's blunders: his almost obedience to God and how God really desires our obedience to Him greater than our gifts to Him) our call to being set apart, our inability to be absolutely perfect and our being made in the image of YHWH.

Later on I was surfing around iTunes and realized that my favorite (I really have about 3 favorites) musician already came out with the EP that I (and thousands of others) have been waiting for for years! I hurriedly click preview all on iTunes listened at his thoughtful and intentional music and lyrics spoke. As I listened to the song below, I pondered how messy, incredible, screwed up, awe-inspiring we people are. And just pondering that alone, as well as this amazingly incredible journey the Master is taking those who choose to walk with Him on, I broke down.

It was the song entitled, "All God's Children"

ALL OF GOD’S CHILDREN

When the things that you can’t hold onto
Are the ones that you wish you could keep
Are you really ready to pay for love
If it costs you everything

- Chorus -

All of God’s children
All of God’s children
Shining underneath
Shining underneath

I believe in a world that’s beyond me
I believe in a world I ain’t seen
Past the glass
The shotgun shacks
The violent, faceless, racist facts
I believe in a world that’s made clean

- Chorus -

All of God’s children
All of God’s children
Shining underneath
Shining underneath

Underneath these scars
Underneath these wars
Underneath the bullet holes
We still don’t know who we are
It’s shining underneath

Oh I’ve been waiting for love to give birth
For new life to show pain it’s worth
Oh I’ve been waiting for peace on earth

- Chorus -

Like a newborn child,
Like a newborn child
Shining underneath

Is there a well that won’t run empty
Is there a friend that can’t be bought
Will you find him when you’re thirsty
To learn the lessons that can’t be taught 

(emphasis mine)

- Chorus -

All of God’s children
Shining underneath
Shining underneath

If you think about it, please be praying for me as my (still yet unknown) moving to PNG date is approaching and I am seeking to prepare myself both physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually and in every other way.

Thank you dear friends :)

Shabbat, blessed Shabbat

With just getting a cold after a long week of work, I'm really feeling the truth of this Scripture that was shared this morning:

"I don’t think the sufferings we are going through now are even worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed to us in the future."

Romans 8:18

"Pressed but not crushed...

... persecuted but not abandoned"
- 2 Corinthians 4:8

Delay. Waiting. Living. Delay. Success. Mess up. Energized. Exhausted. Delay. Frustrated. Alone. Comforted. Comforted.

Pressed... but not crushed. 

**[I'm not EVEN going to use the second part when referring to myself because what I'm experiencing is in NO WAY persecution.]

So there has been a theme in my life as of late concerning me moving to PNG and that is - delays and setbacks.

I really don't want to go into them, but I do want to make the point that, though this has been one of the GREATEST testings of my patience and ultimately my trust in God, I have gleaned some wise tools from God through some beautiful people. And also, when I do find myself unwillingly settling into trust even when I wish to fight to find an answer, Yah almost ALWAYS has sent some beautiful encouragement from His followers. [Example: Got another setback the other day and received a FB message from my Grandpas brothers daughter in law telling me that she has and will be powerfully praying for me!!! Wow, God is good!!]

Here are some battle verses that I intend to use when I become stressed, confused, weak:

Psalm 25:15-17
My eyes are ever toward the LORD, for he will pluck my feet out of the net. Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted. The troubles of my heart are enlarged; bring me out of my distresses.

Psalm 94:19
When the cares of my heart are many, your consolations cheer my soul.

1 Corinthians 2:16
"For who has understood the mind of the Lord so as to instruct him?" But we have the mind of Christ.

2 Corinthians 10:5b
We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ,

Philippians 4:7
And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

2 Timothy 1:7
for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.

Psalm 6:2
Be gracious to me, O LORD, for I am languishing; heal me, O LORD, for my bones are troubled.

Jeremiah 17:14
Heal me, O LORD, and I shall be healed; save me, and I shall be saved, for you are my praise.

Psalm 107:20
He sent out his word and healed them, and delivered them from their destruction.

Psalm 103:3
who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases,


Compiled by Rabbi Greg Hershberg


Don't give up the fight

Beautiful words

Ok, so there are quite a few things I could be blogging about but I am not going to do that now

Haha :D

I'm here subbing at the high school just reading the word and was struck by the abundant power and love of our Creator in this chapter of scripture. The setting is Hezekiah has been told by God that he does not have long to live (presumably because of disease or something) so he cries out for God's mercy and guess what...

He has mercy on him

In a pretty fantastic way as well! This is Hezekiah's response to God's favor:


“I once said: ‘In the prime of life

I am going off to the gates of Sh’ol.

I am being deprived of living out

the full span of my life.’

“I said, ‘I will never again see Yah,

Yah in the land of the living;

I will look on human beings no more

or be with those who live in this world.

My home is uprooted and taken away

from me like a shepherd’s tent.

Like a weaver, I have rolled up my life;

he cuts me off from the loom.

Between day and night you could finish me off.

I try to be strong like a lion till morning,

but still my illness breaks all my bones —

between day and night you could finish me off.

I make little chattering sounds like a swallow,

I moan aloud like a dove,

My eyes are weary with looking upward.

Adonai, I am overwhelmed; guarantee my life!’


“What is there that I can say?

He has spoken to me and acted!

I will go humbly all my years,

remembering how bitter I was.

Adonai, by these things people live;

in all these is the life of my spirit.

You’re restoring my health and giving me life —

though instead of peace, I felt very bitter.

You desired my life and preserved it

from the nothingness pit;

for you threw all my sins behind your back.


“Sh’ol cannot thank you, death cannot praise you;

those descending to the pit cannot hope for your truth.

The living, the living — they can thank you,

as I do today;

fathers will make their children know

about your faithfulness.

Adonai is ready to save me;

hence we will make our stringed instruments sound

all the days of our life

in the house of Adonai.”

:O

I am absolutely BLOWN AWAY and ASTOUNDED... by the incalculable BIG-NESS, sovereignness, beauty, intimacy and ultimately infinateness of the CREATOR YAH this Shabbat night.

PLEASE please, if you find yourself having some extra time, do yourself a favor and watch these videos. I know they're both long





These pictures are from this site and are concerning a concept from the second video. Something I didn't really know about... ABSOLUTELY INCREDIBLE!!!

Literally, the video about fractals has blown my mind!!! After watching it, I could see them everywhere or at least where they could be...

Man...

And it feels SO right this state of worship. Its like, awe... fear... obsession... adoration...

man...

God is            S            O            much better and worth our time than we give Him credit for


... All this beauty from math! Now that's convicting to me..